Lifestyle and Self Healing

Grieving throughout a process that has happened before feels like hell. I'm sure a lot of people can relate. As of now, of course memories still come from time to time but i've been coping in a healthy way about this. I've been writing in my journal everyday, that was something i did before the break up, and it's something i want to continue because i talked to my therapist about it and thats how a habit forms. This is a healthy habit i want to continue and although some days will be more difficult than others in terms of what to write about, it'll be fine because not everything has to be so deep and personal, a simple check in will work. I've been reading more as well as playing a game i really enjoy which is the telltale's walking dead. I've made my own reading journal and made it look cute and i'm going to write down the books i read within each month and give sort of a review of what i read. I'm motivated to do some boxing/ kickboxing... i ...

So i've talked about this scenario before on here.. and unfortunately this is still tied with the same person that my first break up was about. So i'll try my best to explain everything that has happened since then. My ex and I were no longer a thing since may of 2018, three or four months go by and he contacts me saying that he would like to talk to me about something, so we called at that time and he told me that he had a rebound with this girl, it wasn't sexual but he was in a relationship with her for 1 month.. and it ended because he knew he still had feelings for me and he didn't want to do that to her... time goes on and we start talking again like how it was before we even broke up, he said he wanted to change and grow up and that he still wasn't looking for a relationship right now. I told him that i understood and would give him the space to do so, but our feelings got in the way and we were basically on and off were we would show these emotions but la...

I posted on my instagram today a questions tab for people to submit answers this time to me. I asked everyone what were 3 things they wanted to improve about themselves for the upcoming year? I wrote down my 3 but it ended up turning to 4, the first being that i wanted to improve my overall confidence. 2nd i want to do more art throughout this year as well as improve my artistic ability in some way. 3rd was that i wanted to be less of a push over and say no to people and put myself first before others. The 4th thing came later to me but i wanted to also have a goal in mine to keep posting on here some more because writing on here does help me out. This year was really crazy for me, a lot happened within it. I was in a relationship that was about to go 2 years strong but it came to an end abruptly and till this point i'm not exactly sure where that's going to go. I then was confronted by my mom to talk about myself because i seemed off. So, soon enough i told my parents abou...

So i never really have given much depth as to what i wanted to do in terms as a life goal of mine. If everything in life goes well for me i'd like to become a substance abuse counselor and although this image says drugs, substance abuse could also be alcohol and different forms of substance abuse could also include other addictions like eating. Tonight i want to share why exactly i want to become a substance abuse counselor and what led me to this path. My older brother is actually an alcoholic and most of my life i think i just ignored that fact, i didn't have much of a reaction as to how i felt about it because i would often be blind-sighted of what was happening around me, even though i'm sure i could pick up on cues and see the patterns that were happening, i chose to ignore them instead. As i got older it was more prevalent and it was hard to ignore because often times that was all that was talked about in family conversations. This is sort of an on going battle, ...

So i haven't posted on here for a while now for a reason. But i'm not really going to post much after this as well, i'm not doing okay with my mental health right now and i don't even know where to begin with any of this, i'm weak and i'm tired. I've tried helping a situation that has ultimately left me to dissolution. I'm not okay for right now and it's honestly scaring me. my initial reaction was to cut again but i really don't want to throw away anything that i've tried to help myself with getting over this impulse. I want to take some time away from everything to recollect my thoughts, reflect on myself as an individual. my other initial reaction that i had with myself was to end it all because i thought at what point am i needed? I try really hard to be someone that i honestly want for myself but i'm not gaining much. that's all i will say now.

Hello everyone like i mentioned in my last post i wanted to give reviews of each maze as well as take photos as a reference to the maze i'm talking about, this list will be of my most favorite to my least favorite, so please enjoy. Shadowlands is a maze that's been there for a while so this is actually the second time i've been to this maze, and i love it just as much as the first time i went to it. This one is by far the best one in my opinion, i love the theme and the overall creepiness about it.     Trick or Treat was the second runner up, this one was definitely cool to have as an overall concept. You get to walk around in the maze with a little flashlight and that's it so it's basically in the dark which is just so fun as an interactive piece. Loved the design overall of this whole maze.   Obviously i've used this picture already for my last post but this one is called the Depths and even though i took a photo of it last time, we ...

Hello everyone, i just finished reading this book and i wanted to review it. I will from now on put the summary of the book so that people can sort of get the concept of what this book is and then afterwards i'll share my thoughts about the book without revealing anything. Summary:  The party at John Doone's last saturday night is a bit of a blur. Kate Weston can piece together most of the details: Stacey Stallard handing her shots, Ben Cody taking her keys and getting her home early... But when a picture of Stacey passed out over Deacon Mill's shoulder appears online the next morning, Kate suspects she doesn't have all the details. When Stacey levels charges against four of Kate's classmates, the whole town erupts in controversy. Facts that can't be ignored begin to surface, and every answer Kate finds leads her back to the same questions: Who witnessed what happened to Stacey? And what responsibility do they have to speak up about what they saw? My Revie...