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I posted on my instagram today a questions tab for people to submit answers this time to me. I asked everyone what were 3 things they wanted to improve about themselves for the upcoming year? I wrote down my 3 but it ended up turning to 4, the first being that i wanted to improve my overall confidence. 2nd i want to do more art throughout this year as well as improve my artistic ability in some way. 3rd was that i wanted to be less of a push over and say no to people and put myself first before others. The 4th thing came later to me but i wanted to also have a goal in mine to keep posting on here some more because writing on here does help me out.

This year was really crazy for me, a lot happened within it. I was in a relationship that was about to go 2 years strong but it came to an end abruptly and till this point i'm not exactly sure where that's going to go. I then was confronted by my mom to talk about myself because i seemed off. So, soon enough i told my parents about my sexual abuse... and later i got the courage to tell even more people about it. I graduated from community college and went on to a university this year. A lot of highs were in this year but this year for me i would say would be the most challenging. I dealt with a lot of anxiety as well as depression, and although i'm sad to see 2018 go by in what seems like such a little time, i'm also glad to know it's over. I've grown more and i'm ready to keep growing and see what other lessons i can learn from throughout this new year. I hope you are all safe tonight, and i hope you can all reflect as to what 2018 brought for you.

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