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So i haven't posted on here for a while now for a reason. But i'm not really going to post much after this as well, i'm not doing okay with my mental health right now and i don't even know where to begin with any of this, i'm weak and i'm tired. I've tried helping a situation that has ultimately left me to dissolution. I'm not okay for right now and it's honestly scaring me. my initial reaction was to cut again but i really don't want to throw away anything that i've tried to help myself with getting over this impulse. I want to take some time away from everything to recollect my thoughts, reflect on myself as an individual. my other initial reaction that i had with myself was to end it all because i thought at what point am i needed? I try really hard to be someone that i honestly want for myself but i'm not gaining much. that's all i will say now.

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