Coping Thoughts #4

It's been a while since i've done one of these posts. A lot of this won't even make sense, it's more just for me. I feel scared of what the outcome might be, i've expected a lot in the past, and a lot has disappointed me. I still have so much love, and it hurts to know that maybe something wouldn't come of it. I feel as though i'm not ready to accept what might be in the future, i'm really afraid that i won't be able to get over it if it does. I'm scared of what might become of me because i know the first time it happened it consumed me. I don't want to think that i might have to go into that territory again at least not for right now. So i guess what i want right now is to just love myself and wish for the best and i'll learn through all of it because apparently i was stupid enough to stick by my wishful thinking. Look what i always put myself in, i need to see what really becomes of me. Will i grow more because of this or will i become more depressed because of this? I'm ready for my counseling appointment, i wish it was today. But it's okay, only 8 more days away.

*Not my original artwork* Link : saatchiart

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