We All Make Mistakes We Aren't Proud Of

I had a conversation with my ex not too long ago about what happened between us and we talked for a while about it and now we are slowly getting away from the concept of being friends... and going into actually going on a date. We went on our first date not too long ago, and everything felt the same way it did before in a good way. Nothing was uncomfortable or awkward. There's a lot i'd like to mention but for privacy reasons i will just say that he wanted to mature more as a person and honestly so did i. There were mistakes that were made along the way but now i'm bit over it already and want to try it out again and see where it takes me. I feel happy right now and i hope this feeling doesn't go away because i'm not ready for it to again. I guess you could say i'm hoping for the best right now and i'm going on with my life at a slow and steady pace... we aren't going to rush anything and i am actually perfectly fine with that... of course there's certain things i'd like to say already but i can hold back that feeling for just a bit until we reach the level we were at before. I just wanted to mention this as a post to let people know kind of where i'm standing in with myself and what's been changing around me.

*Note: not original art* ... I Beg You to Forgive

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