I Haven't Gone To Therapy in 3 Months

I wanted to talk about me not continuing therapy. It happens at times and for me i've felt so unmotivated to do it because of my schedule at school, i only go there two times a week and usually when i schedule my appointments it always lands on a different day. I get unmotivated to go solely for it because of the drive and the parking and it's really stupid and immature of me to think that, my health comes first and i should really take the opportunity since it's already paid for with the tuition. The first session isn't really a session it's called a screening, and what it does is basically screens you to see exactly what you would want help in and then from there the next session will most likely start with seeing that process and then going on from there. I don't know how i've been doing personally, i feel as though most of the time i've been doing pretty well, school keeps me busy and sometimes i see people that i talk to or hangout with from time to time. I just feel as though i should take the chance and make an appointment and not care so much of what day it lands on or what time either. I have an idea of what i would talk about, but i wouldn't exactly know how to approach it. Of course i'd have to talk a bit about my sexual abuse, and give some background information about that and tell whoever i'll be speaking to that quite a bit of people know by this point what has happened to me. Starting on monday, when i have my break between classes i'll go in and try to schedule an appointment for myself before it's too late, i really shouldn't be wasting anymore time with it, even if nothing drastic is happening in the moment i should release some tension i put on myself.

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