Coping Thoughts #3

I have really good days and then i end up falling apart in instances. I'm still trying to deal with a lot and i don't know how to handle everything at once, even through i'm really trying to. I need to write more because that's helped me a lot lately. I want to write another short story soon, i just need motivation for it like i did for the last one, i want to go to a cafe and sit down and work on it, so maybe i could start trying that out in the weekend. How can someone be strong and weak at the same time? i don't know how it happens but it just does, because that's all i've been lately... and honestly no one can help me at this moment, only a professional or myself. I'm going to schedule an appointment at some point when i do start school again at my new school. But right now i kind of have to just use this platform as my way to express myself. I feel alone most of the times and then other times i feel overwhelmed with support i'm getting and it's like i'm never satisfied with myself. I try and i try to change my own views about myself and luckily i haven't had a strong urge to cut myself but i do think about it, i'm not completely done with my own personal journey, it's something i'm going to have to continue with for a while, possibly even after college, it's just a life challenge. But right now i really have to appreciate everything i've accomplished with myself, i feel more free with my own emotions and i know how powerful i can be with my own passions and wants, i know how much i deserve now at this point and i really can't bother dealing with people i don't like anymore, i'm past that point and i'm ready to move forward from everything. I need to really take care of myself, i need a lot of reflection on myself and i'm ready for so much more.

*Note* : Not my original artwork ... Saatchi Art

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