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What I Would Tell My Younger Self

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Hello everyone, i've always been fascinated with the idea of what i would possibly tell my younger self if i had the choice to do so. I've realized that there's a lot i would want to say for obvious reasons like the fact that i was sexually abused and kept it in for so long, i would've liked to express that at an earlier time if i could've because keeping something like this from anybody was really damaging for me and i can't really do anything about it now but bring more awareness to it and work on myself as an individual. There's other lessons i'd like to teach to my younger self like having your first heartbreak will suck and it'll take a lot of energy out of you and make you feel like you were the reason as to why it all happened, but you should never doubt yourself as a person, in the relationship i grew and he didn't want to grow with me so there's nothing that i did wrong. Even though we had arguments here and there, i did the best of my ability to be strong for both of us and try to work things out but it never really worked out. And it's okay, you have to learn to grow from this and know what to expect in terms of yourself and your actions for the next relationship to come, i now know my own worth as a person and know that there's certain things that i shouldn't let be passed on. It's okay to take care of yourself..  don't feel as though you have to take care of everyone and their feelings just because they're your friends.. you love your friends but sometimes you just have to really get into a mindset of looking after your self and your mental health... that's the most important aspect. It would've been great if you could go to therapy sooner but just know when you do go to therapy that it's nerve wrecking and its something you've never been familiar with but you're going to love what happens when you do seek help, you're going to love the person you are because you're now taking care of yourself and putting in the time and effort to change and to grow as a young adult with many issues that you've dealt with in the past. 
You might not like how you've coped with stuff before or you might hate how you look like right now or you might be suicidal.. but you'll grow so much and love yourself a lot more. You'll end up loving the girl you end up choosing to be and in result you'll be happier in life because of it.

*Note* not my original art ... advice to younger self


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