Lifestyle and Self Healing

So a lot has been racing through my mind... a lot of feelings of shame and guilt really. I wasn't able to get a therapy session in for this week due to my schedule and now i have to wait until the 21st in order to go. It's not that bad, but it made me realize just how much therapy really helps me as something to go to as a habit for myself and my own health. I can't let go of this feeling of shame i have with myself, it's something i feel in the moment and it fades away and comes back again just to spite me. Guilt is my enemy, it's not me. I should have no guilt because as a child i did nothing wrong, so why do i still have this feeling within me? I don't know why, it just happens to be like i'm never truly contempt with myself... there's always something to perfect.. and it gets tiring trying to be this ideal version of yourself when in the back of your brain all you have is guilt and shame waiting for you, seeking that release from within, waiting fo